8 Convulsions
there
goes my soul
i
can't hear what i'm sayin'
i've got
this hole in my head
and it keeps
getting bigger
and i'm
afraid if it doesn't stop...
i don't know
what i'm sayin'
and then
maybe you'll lock me away in a room all by myself
and i know i
can't win that battle...
there's
something evil in this head of mine
it's trying
to eat a hole that one in my head
so it can
have room for itself
so it can
destroy the rest of me
angel angel
down we fall together
all alone my
souls starts to die
disintegration
i've given
away all i never had
now my wings
are burning rusting wire
i'm turning
empty growing colder still...
sweething
and
our eyes meet
and of
course you say something stupid:
"yo
red, yo baby. i like that, i'd fuck that
look at
those tits, ohh that ass,
hey pussy
i'll fuck you and your girlfriend
let me suck
your clit
hey cunt,
i'm talking to you
look at me
bitch. i'm talking to you
hey cunt.
i'll kill you bitch
don't you
walk away from me pussy
i said i'm
talking to you bitch
where's my
fucking present baby"
don't
violate me
don't give a
fuck what you have to say
don't
violate me
so you think
you got me fingered
i think
you're looking like a fool
a dumb
fucking fool
can't
violate me
you're full
of nothing but shit
you're knees
will never rise
but don't
take it out on me
this cunt is
mine
don't need
your dick in me boy
can't get it
up enough for me boy
i can get it
if i want
don't need
you screaming in my face
can't rape
this
don't need
your dick
don't need
your shit in me boy
so just
don't think you're doin' me any favors
as you stand
there whistlin' at me like i'm some kind of fucking dog
who's
supposed to come after you wagging my tail
just don't
think you're doin' me any favors
'cos i think
you're a piece of weak shit
you're gonna
burn, and i'm gonna do it to ya'
you dumb
fuck
gemini
swirly
angels and this is my last breath
i can cover
you and fill you
and you
smile in my ear
you are a
sun and i love you every day
swirly
angels and this is my last breath
i can fill
you up and i can bring you closer
to where you
want to be
now. swirly
angels you are me
and i love
you every day
now you are
me
more
than down
this
is what you think of me
it's time to
face your bigotry
"bitch
dyke slut whore"
i know you
really want me to give you more
and now
you're gonna show me how to get fucked by an asshole
even though
you're afraid of me
while you
crouch there raping me
i know you
must be thinking more
and you'll
say how beautiful i am as i walk past you on the street
and when i
ignore you you'll say
"bitch
dyke slut whore
you're ugly
you're so
fucking ugly"
this is what
you think of me
it's time to
face your bigotry
now
smash
to pieces
hey
now where did you go
i thought i
was holding it all
but there's
nothing but air baby
fall into my
breath and chase away my fears
only don't
leave me so hollow
i sit back
and look at this thing i've become
am i really
so twisted
or are these
the things you've filled me up with
but trusting
what you say
i truly am
not worth a thing
so lend me
your crown
and i'll
bear your pain
the king has
gone away
so stand on
my shoulders i'll carry your weight
fill me up
with your negativity
and your
wrath is just for me
so i see
it's me...
and i'm
almost dead
but
sometimes i think there may be hope
but then i
realize that i'm just so hollow
drilling
me
standing
all alone i see you smile
and it tears
right through me
so what good
were you for anyway
don't know -
can't seem to find a way to let go
and the
candles burning bright
now come on
into my darkness
it's kinda
safe here
don't have
to think about my bruises
and all the
shit that's in your eyes
i'm goin'
down
inside your
eyes i see the lies
the ones
that tear you up inside
you're going
down...
rotten
anyway
hey
old man your face makes me so sad
where you
gonna sleep tonight
wish i could
give you something
but i walk
away
so don't ask
me for anything
aint got
nothin' to give anymore
home. where
did it go
hey old man
your lookin' thin today
don't call
after me
don't got
nothin' to give you or me or anyone
just a
fucking bitter bottle
just drink
your fucking bottle so there
and drink of
me as well
home. where
did it go
you and me
we're a perfect match
i'm a piece
of shit and you're a tired piece of ass
oh it all
comes down to one pile of darkness
hey old man
i'm sorry
keep
me from falling
sweet
sweet sunshine
so where are
you now
i thought i
was holding a hand
but you
mother fucker
i fucked you
and ran
but don't
leave me here unbroken
i'm trying
to shatter me
till there's
nothing left but the rain
sweet sweet
sunshine
so where are
you now
tear down my
half
now he's
your mother fucker
but you're
inside me and i can't get you out
there's
something in me
that makes
you fear yourself
and i can
see you ripping to pieces and pieces
and pieces
of shit fall from my mouth
i'm full of
it i've tried to break myself
but i just
won't die so if you can try just start with my bones
then fuck my
insides out break me
there's
something in me i can't stand
i hate it
get it out kill it just kill it all
break my
bones fuck my insides out i can't stand it
i can't take
it anymore
where is my
sweet sunshine
there's only
black and empty break me
sweet
sunshine i hate all this shit that is me
i'm trying
to destroy it
sweet sweet
sunshine i'm broken
sweet
sunshine don't let me end this way